I was asked a very pointed question the other day.

It was one of those questions that seem to come like a lightning bolt out of a clear blue sky. It is one of those statements that you just cannot let go of because it is so unsettlingly fascinating.

My husband and I were having breakfast at a local restaurant, and the conversation turned metaphysical as it generally does with us.

As I was sharing an idea with him regarding a concept I was working through, I used an example from the life of Jesus in order to make my point. He did not attempt to prove or disprove my conclusion, but instead asked, "How do you know that Jesus was even a real person? Can you prove it?"

Interesting. As of course, I cannot.

We both have logical minds and apply them with fervor when it comes to the topic of religion and faith. We meet and understand eachother on a huge tract of common ground. We plant seeds and reap what we sow, together.

And he does have a way with words. . .

The first thing that sprang to mind, after a not-so-coherent response, was that, as an aspect of myself, he was once again presenting to me that which I wish to learn.

I have a built in need to understand, to find the logic in what I think, and to be able to apply it in a practical manner. That does not change if my inquiry is based on science or spirituality, as I have a knowing that at some point in time they will be integrated.

That is a whole other discussion and highly subjective. In this case the term "practical" is highly subjective as well, as that which I conclude may only be something under which I can "stand." Or it may not. It is up to your discernment and logic to choose for yourself.

At the present time, when there is greater and greater insecurity outwardly, there is obviously a yearning for inward security. Since we cannot find security outside, we seek it in an idea, in thought, and so we create that which we call God, and that concept becomes our security. Now, a mind that seeks security surely cannot find the real, the true. To understand that which is beyond time, the fabrications of thought must come to an end. Thought cannot exist without words, symbols, images, and only when the mind is quiet, free of its own creations, is there a possibility of finding out what is real. So merely to ask if there is or is not God is an immature response to the problem, is it not? And to formulate opinions about God is really childish. - J. Krishnamurti

The extension of this idea leads me to believe that there is no God we can understand except the one we create. This is due to our comprehension of what God is, and that is completely limited to individual perceptions, however expansive they may seem to us.

To me it is another way of saying that we cannot grasp the infinite that is God, as we are individualized aspects of the whole and our thoughts are finite. For me, this is a fact. If I cannot understand everything, I can have no concept of everything.

But if I can contemplate what "everything" means to me . . .

It has been stated that as infinite beings we have Infinity with us. If I accept that I am an infinite being having a finite experience, and that I cannot conceptualize It even in a remote manner out there in the world, search as I might. . .then Infinity, being a fact, must be within me, as an idea does not leave its Source. That does not, however, change the fact that I am not aware of it.

Logic, for me, leads me to conclude that, considering my subjective reality, Truth stands regardless of my perception of it. Understanding that is enough.

I accept as fact that I cannot know God except in a limited manner.

There are many things that I do not comprehend at this point in time. I anticipate discovering those ideas and concepts that I will integrate and accept as factual and true for me once I become aware of them. This is another fact in my world.

It is a fact that facts become themselves through my awareness of their existence.

Do I become me once I am aware of my own existence?

Is it also a fact that God becomes Itself once I am aware of Its existence?

I think so . . .and so it is . . . for me.

The fact that existence itself is a thought in the mind of its Creator brings to my awareness that even this concept is subjective.

All of this sits well with me. The fact that I cannot know it all, in this existence, serves me well.

I enjoy my subjective meanderings. Another fact is that these are all I have. I only have me to work with, therefore I must be enough.

If existence itself is a thought in the mind of my Creator, then logic would lead me to conclude that I AM also a thought in the mind of my Creator.

I am self aware, I am aware that I am. Can an idea be self aware? Or does it mean that I, as a thought, never left my Source? It "practically" concludes Itself.

My awareness of this leads me to conclude that the whole world, the whole universe, the whole . . . whatever I can determine as a "whole" is an idea as well. Definitely my thought of it is an idea.

The Source of it all is no-thing nor idea and does not exist as I can define It, and cannot be grasped by words no matter how well designed and executed . . .it does not matter to Source in the least that my aspect cannot determine from my perspective what It is. What is beyond matter, is beyond is-ness.

I call It, Truth. That is the name that serves me in my pursuit to know It. It has been named many things and that does not matter. It is all the same.

The Infinite. God. The Divine Matrix. Son of God. Jesus. Daughter of God. Me. You. All is in all.

Like a drop in the Infinite Ocean . . .I am part of that Ocean, and the awareness of being a drop and being all I was created to be (God's idea, not mine) is my purpose.

Jesus' (as well as other Master Teachers') awareness is more like a Infinite wave, representing a larger aspect of the Infinite Ocean. He understands so much more than I.

In His teachings lie the knowledge and fact that what He did so can I do, if my awareness can expand to encompass a wave thought.

The part of the Ocean that became Jesus told me that I can do it (again God's idea, not mine). I believe Him, at this point in my awareness.

Do I know I can do it? Is it Truth for me? No. If I was I wouldn't be asking the questions.

What determines how expansive my thoughts can become? To continue the analogy, how far into the vastness of the Infinite Ocean I allow It's wave to carry me.

I am led back to the burning question . . . How do I know that Jesus was even a real person? Can I prove it?

Nope. Still can't.

Whether Jesus was a real man who walked the earth 2000 years ago in a human form may be proven . . .or it may not. I ask myself, Why would it matter?  Would what He taught change if my version of Him had to be revised?

Jesus is the name I give my all access pass to the Infinite. Jesus is the wave that carries me into that vast Ocean of knowledge that is my freedom. He is the vision I hold for the grandest version of myself to manifest on this earth. He is my Way, my Truth, and my Life.

In my world, He is a matter of fact.